It's Been Awhile

I've been MIA for several days. Mainly out of laziness I guess, although this weekend was extremely busy.

Saturday I did something that has been a long time coming. My siblings and I went to my grandmother's house (my father was living with her before he died) to remove my father's "estate" and divide it amongst ourselves. The estate mainly consisted of antique furniture: large wall clocks, mantel clocks, marble-top tables, a beautiful roll-top desk, chairs, etc. The reason I say it was a long time coming is because he died January 15, 2007. He had a will that clearly stated that his estate was to be divided amongst the 3 children, but my grandmother had some problems with that and thought those items should belong to her, and she should be able to sell them. After a very long process and some very hurtful words, the day had finally come. My uncle, executor of the will, was there to oversee things, which I'm thankful for.

Everything went OK. There were still hurt feelings, at least on my end, but it was as smooth as I could hope for. The furniture is with us now, although my portion is at my mother's house since I have no room for anything.

Sunday we went to my other grandmother's house (my Granny) for Father's Day and to celebrate my sister's birthday. She shares her birthday with Father's Day just like I share mine with Mother's Day. We celebrated with my grandfather and other family members, and then went to visit with Z's father that evening. We had a nice visit, and a very nice day, although quite long. (It sucked when we got on the interstate and I discovered it was almost 100 miles until home...)

Today I applied for another job. I am so sick of this, and very down on myself right now. I'm in a foul mood, though I try not to be. I just want to have a place to get up and go every morning and feel useful and not like a bum. I'm freaking unemployed and it makes me feel crappy. I think that's why I haven't blogged--because I have nothing to say! I wake up late every day, have to convince myself to even get dressed sometimes, and read, watch tv, generally hang around with Z (we have never had so much together time), then when he leaves for his night class, I cook dinner (and find myself searching for elaborate, time-consuming new recipes just to have something to do), apply for jobs, check email, visit with him when he comes home, and go to bed too late for normal non-college students. Most days I don't even have errands to run, because what errands would you have if you didn't work? You would not have to go to the bank, you would not be able to go shopping, you wouldn't run somewhere on the way to somewhere else, because you're never on your way anywhere. See what I mean?

OK, that's enough of that. Just had to get it out of my system.